Its been three weeks since the day my dad left me and my family ,feels like so many days go by after his passing ,until today i still feel awkward for not seeing him doing his housework and stuff and sometimes i feel like he still here with us you know ,he just go somewhere someplace i cant find him ,feel like he’s mad about something and he run away from us. but thats a lie ,he is no longer with us ,until now i cant believe that he’s gone. i dont know about my other siblings but sometimes i think they feel the same way too ,of course we siblings share the same feeling, its our dad for godsake. one thing that really hurt the most is seeing mom handling her day without dad ,i dont have guts to talk to her about her feeling and about the lost ,im not afraid if she cry or anything because i know she will not ,i know she not gonna shed a tears infront of me ,im the one who will .i know my mom is a strong women ,she is a one hellofa strong women .she sad ,thats true ,but she seems like she dont want to show it to us ,and i know she cries inside .thats the only thing that hurt me right fucking now. i dont think i can handle any lost after all this .You better be in a good place now dad and i hope you can read this….. Thank god Tumblr cant talk, breath or even cry ,it feels good to express my lame ass feeling here and tumblr cant even give me feedbacks ,and one things for sure this would be my first time writing about feeling and shit do correct me if im wrong .Assalamualaikum